Maybe she was the fury, the courage, the sex (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} shockoflove) wrote,@ 2005-11-14 19:08:00 |
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i wrote this more than a year ago...
yes. a lot of hate. not without reason, dare i say, at the tender age of 16. or 15? idk when i wrote this. what's different? a lot and so little. random tidbits; i don't really hate pink that much anymore. also, for you non-hipsters, "sleeves" refers to tattoos. & wow did i use a lot of profanity. T_T i also no longer hate feminists, as i can differentiate them from man-hating femi-nazis. feminists, in fact, are supercool. (like me. :P)
& this is why i hate;;;…
this is why i hate drugs: not just because it ruined my image of my cousin- he was no longer a golden boy, the guy i looked up to- but because drugs are just fuckin' stupid. wanna ruin your life, or at least temporarily damage your brain? here you go!
this is why i hate drinking: you tell me you can handle it; you all do. some of the most responsible people i know have fucked up, so can you. you like waking up, not remembering what happened yesterday? you like nearly dying of alcohol poisoning? but it's not even that. because it won't happen to you. you say so anyways. not just because i'm a doctor's daughter. not just because i've seen the consequences. not just because so many of my friends do it. who cares. right? the only thing i trust that changes your state of my mind is lust and love. that's it. (but you don't care. you wouldn't want my respect, would you?)
this is why i hate plastic girls: a mask of a makeup, blank thoughts, bleached hair & menacing glares don't make a person. do i even need to expand on why i hate plastic girls? they're all rah-rah-rah i'm the best worship me have sex with me look at my stomach even though i really should not be showing it off! no one even recognises real beauty anymore, it no longer exists. these girls...it's degrading. i would like to kill them all slowly and painfully... [insert horrid description here]
this is why i hate horny boys: because they say the most disgusting things to you, and while it is very satisfactory hurting them, it usually only makes them hornier.
this is why i hate horny drunk boys: because they say the most disgusting things to you, and actually live under the delusion that you like it. and while it is very satisfactory hurting them, it usually only makes them hornier to the power of infinity.
this is why i hate the new emo trend: everybody is all like, "yeah your emo isn't underground anymore" and i'm all "fuck you" and they think they know music more than me now that they know what it is but um, seeing a yellowcard and a taking back sunday video does not mean anything. i hate trends as it is, but good god, everyone wants to be scene, hardcore, emo! die die die die die die!! the new emo trend sucks more so because the stupid teenagers are ruining it (trends suck) than because they are stealing it from me. stupid motherfuckers.
this is why i hate the dropkick murpheys: uh, because they suck like whoa. seriously. they should be shot 283957298572 times over. i would like to rip off their bloody....and staple it to their heads, whilst ripping off their arms and legs...oops, description coming on.
this is why i hate bitchy people without purpose: seriously. what do you have to bitch about? you have everything. just shutup. you're all "you're too happy" to me, well, fuck you! would you rather i be bitter all the time like when i am in my state of hateration? would you rather i not be fake happy? i, unlike you, have reasons to be miserable, yet, i, unlike you, do not take it out on the world surrounding me. that often. so just fuckin' smile for me, won't you?
this is why i hate most parties: get high. smoke up all night long! get drunk. have sex with randoms. makeout with randoms. cheat on your girlfriend. make her feel like shit. she has feelings too, you know. used & abused. get so wasted you get down and dirty with what's his name..oh yeah, and you're a guy too! get hit on by slimy drunk boys who only want to grab you. even though there's nothing to grab. watch everyone you know fall into society.
this is why i hate smoking: kissing you would be like licking an ashtray. cancer much? yellow teeth, black lungs, cigarette cologne; what a turn on. you're burning your body & breaking yourself down. i'm not even going to go on about how daft & disgusting smoking is.
this is why i hate ignorant people: agkjhalthwaiutg! ignorant people deserve to be burned, have their skin peeled every so slowly from their bodies, and then... (sorry, description again there...) just, gah. learn about cultures, dammit. chinese people and japanese people aren't the same. brown people are not all from india. and get this! india is not a continent! brown people- are actually- asian! quit living under a rock and educate yourself; there's a vast world around you. experience it.
this is why i hate [edited out as this is public]
this is why i hate ketchup: i dunno, i just don’t like it. not usually anyways. i take my fries salty & plain.
this is why i hate promiscuity : respect yourself. if you don't respect yourself, you are nobody. bodies being thrown around, virginity, does it exist anymore? sex is great, we know. but sex is nothing if you're not in love. there's fucking, and there's effing love making. heaven on ground. but you wouldn't know, would you?
this is why i hate body hair : i dunno. just irks me. hairyness just...gah. smooth skin, i like. yeah i'm one of those weird girls who even likes hairless guys. *shrug* it's one of the only things i've picked up from my mom. hatred for body hair.
this is why i hate insomnia: oh, i just love nearly passing out during my tests; and i just love not being able to fall asleep so i can sit around and think of all the reasons why life hates me.
this is why i hate sleeves : i want to see your arms. like those biceps? yeah, they're nice clean. don't ruin it. one or two, that's okay. alien arms? that's not.
this is why i hate cheaters: i mean, <3 cheaters. you know why millions of north americans are divorced? because they can't keep their fucking pants on. because no one remembers what love is, because no one thinks of how much they might hurt the one they're with. cheating; it's right up there with drugs, alcohol, promiscuity & the kkk. low, it's just low. & it would hurt so bad, i would imagine. cheaters= low lifes. there are, however, exceptions, but fuck, you're telling her you're in love with her and then you off and go & do that? not cool. not at all.
this is why i hate teenagers : they are inbred sorry excuses for human beings. the majority of them anyways. they're going nowhere and bringing our futures with them.
this is why i hate society : brainwashing our every thought, controlling our moves. bringing insecurity to so many idiot teenage girls. making billions of dollars off the inept, rolling out trends the way [edit] rolls out insults. every fucking second. society; disgusting. the reason for the majority of my rants. hey, it's not my fault everyone sucks. society says it's okay to fuck up your life. society says it's okay to wake up in the middle of nowhere half naked. society says it's okay to have sex with someone at fourteen just cos' you like em' a lot. hey, who cares, right? pregancy never happens!
this is why i hate feminists : oh just shutup already, no one fuckin' cares. just deal with it; we're no more than the male species. equal. you're no better than chauvinists. seriously. & just shave already, god, no one needs to see that. someone could get an eye poked out or burn from that; it's a hazard, fuck.
this is why i hate techno : um, because it sucks?
this is why i hate bill gates : grrr......................bloody bastard wasting all of my money. moron.
this is why i hate the majority of americans : not any of you, course' :p. just...about everyone who asks me if i say "eh???" and ask about igloos, to which i respond, "yes, i plug my computer into the ice." and to every stupid "you have walmart? really!???" "no, since i live on a floating iceberg." & also since they actually voted for bush. i mean, hello!!!!!!!!!!! mister "hey i'm gonna shoot innocent brown people because i can!" & because i've gone through so much; i've had so many ignorant and racist comments directed at me. damn fuckers.
this is why i hate skaters i know: oh just...learn to drive already!! no, that's not it. they're just so, "hey i'm a skater let me talking about it all day long 24/7 and piss everyone off oh look what i can do i can do an ollie yay yay yay did i mention i'm 16 and need a life hey look at my shag i don't wash my hair and hey look what i can do! " some boys, i agree, are shag-a-delic, hah, but um, most of them are far too long and i strongly dislike long hair on guys. but not just that. they are so annoying and they all hang out with each other and have their skater kings c and m (but m is okay because he seems cool and it's not just because of his lip ring rini!!) and they have no brains and...yeah. i dislike them muchly. them and their circa and osiris and thinking they know punk music even though months ago they did not know what emo is (but alas, thanks to the trend, they do now!) and they only listen to afi all day long so therefore i am no longer on good terms with afi. sometimes anyways. afi all day long on their shirts, playin' loud & their conversations. the only bloody band they know! gah!!!! wow, that was long. lol.
this is why i hate her: um, i don't. hate her, that is. but she's the one person i strong dislike even though i haven't seen her in ages; she bothers me so much because well, she was my ex bestfriend who ditched me [edit], told people i copied her, and comes off as this cool non-conformist when really, she's just a shadow (except only those who are close to her really see that.) she's his shadow. she borrowed his eyes- may that's why he's so emo, gotta cover up his lack of eyes with hair- and hasn't given em' back. i could go on forever, but it wouldn't make any difference. she would still be her, and i would still be deena; the girl she thought she left behind, but really, i was always miles ahead of her.
this is why i hate winter: because we get snow. lots of snow. and snow is cold. & i hate being cold. there's no one to even bloody warm me up. no. winter is bad. bad bad bad. cold is bad.
this is why i pink: bright...colours...bad....hot pink i don't mind, actually. but still. would never wear it. looks terrible on me too. and also the epitome of girliness.
this is why i hate scenesters: oh i'm so cool, i'm so scene, i'm way cooler then you, i can't talk to you because i'm better than you! oh yeah look at my emo hair, it means i'm the hottest person ever, therefore don't even try to talk to me! damn hypocrites; they're exactly like the so-called in crowd. puhhlease. scenester hipster incrowd. motherfuckers!
this is why i hate drama queens: oh god, no one cares. really.
speaking of no one cares, i'm gonna shutup now....it’s long. i know. aye.
{& there's so much more. yes, i am a girl with a lot of hate. well, it's not really hate for a lot of them, just strong dislike. angry angry girl had to just rant. sorry, aye. yeah, i don't care if i've offended you. :p }
yes. a lot of hate. not without reason, dare i say, at the tender age of 16. or 15? idk when i wrote this. what's different? a lot and so little. random tidbits; i don't really hate pink that much anymore. also, for you non-hipsters, "sleeves" refers to tattoos. & wow did i use a lot of profanity. T_T i also no longer hate feminists, as i can differentiate them from man-hating femi-nazis. feminists, in fact, are supercool. (like me. :P)
& this is why i hate;;;…
this is why i hate drugs: not just because it ruined my image of my cousin- he was no longer a golden boy, the guy i looked up to- but because drugs are just fuckin' stupid. wanna ruin your life, or at least temporarily damage your brain? here you go!
this is why i hate drinking: you tell me you can handle it; you all do. some of the most responsible people i know have fucked up, so can you. you like waking up, not remembering what happened yesterday? you like nearly dying of alcohol poisoning? but it's not even that. because it won't happen to you. you say so anyways. not just because i'm a doctor's daughter. not just because i've seen the consequences. not just because so many of my friends do it. who cares. right? the only thing i trust that changes your state of my mind is lust and love. that's it. (but you don't care. you wouldn't want my respect, would you?)
this is why i hate plastic girls: a mask of a makeup, blank thoughts, bleached hair & menacing glares don't make a person. do i even need to expand on why i hate plastic girls? they're all rah-rah-rah i'm the best worship me have sex with me look at my stomach even though i really should not be showing it off! no one even recognises real beauty anymore, it no longer exists. these girls...it's degrading. i would like to kill them all slowly and painfully... [insert horrid description here]
this is why i hate horny boys: because they say the most disgusting things to you, and while it is very satisfactory hurting them, it usually only makes them hornier.
this is why i hate horny drunk boys: because they say the most disgusting things to you, and actually live under the delusion that you like it. and while it is very satisfactory hurting them, it usually only makes them hornier to the power of infinity.
this is why i hate the new emo trend: everybody is all like, "yeah your emo isn't underground anymore" and i'm all "fuck you" and they think they know music more than me now that they know what it is but um, seeing a yellowcard and a taking back sunday video does not mean anything. i hate trends as it is, but good god, everyone wants to be scene, hardcore, emo! die die die die die die!! the new emo trend sucks more so because the stupid teenagers are ruining it (trends suck) than because they are stealing it from me. stupid motherfuckers.
this is why i hate the dropkick murpheys: uh, because they suck like whoa. seriously. they should be shot 283957298572 times over. i would like to rip off their bloody....and staple it to their heads, whilst ripping off their arms and legs...oops, description coming on.
this is why i hate bitchy people without purpose: seriously. what do you have to bitch about? you have everything. just shutup. you're all "you're too happy" to me, well, fuck you! would you rather i be bitter all the time like when i am in my state of hateration? would you rather i not be fake happy? i, unlike you, have reasons to be miserable, yet, i, unlike you, do not take it out on the world surrounding me. that often. so just fuckin' smile for me, won't you?
this is why i hate most parties: get high. smoke up all night long! get drunk. have sex with randoms. makeout with randoms. cheat on your girlfriend. make her feel like shit. she has feelings too, you know. used & abused. get so wasted you get down and dirty with what's his name..oh yeah, and you're a guy too! get hit on by slimy drunk boys who only want to grab you. even though there's nothing to grab. watch everyone you know fall into society.
this is why i hate smoking: kissing you would be like licking an ashtray. cancer much? yellow teeth, black lungs, cigarette cologne; what a turn on. you're burning your body & breaking yourself down. i'm not even going to go on about how daft & disgusting smoking is.
this is why i hate ignorant people: agkjhalthwaiutg! ignorant people deserve to be burned, have their skin peeled every so slowly from their bodies, and then... (sorry, description again there...) just, gah. learn about cultures, dammit. chinese people and japanese people aren't the same. brown people are not all from india. and get this! india is not a continent! brown people- are actually- asian! quit living under a rock and educate yourself; there's a vast world around you. experience it.
this is why i hate [edited out as this is public]
this is why i hate ketchup: i dunno, i just don’t like it. not usually anyways. i take my fries salty & plain.
this is why i hate promiscuity : respect yourself. if you don't respect yourself, you are nobody. bodies being thrown around, virginity, does it exist anymore? sex is great, we know. but sex is nothing if you're not in love. there's fucking, and there's effing love making. heaven on ground. but you wouldn't know, would you?
this is why i hate body hair : i dunno. just irks me. hairyness just...gah. smooth skin, i like. yeah i'm one of those weird girls who even likes hairless guys. *shrug* it's one of the only things i've picked up from my mom. hatred for body hair.
this is why i hate insomnia: oh, i just love nearly passing out during my tests; and i just love not being able to fall asleep so i can sit around and think of all the reasons why life hates me.
this is why i hate sleeves : i want to see your arms. like those biceps? yeah, they're nice clean. don't ruin it. one or two, that's okay. alien arms? that's not.
this is why i hate cheaters: i mean, <3 cheaters. you know why millions of north americans are divorced? because they can't keep their fucking pants on. because no one remembers what love is, because no one thinks of how much they might hurt the one they're with. cheating; it's right up there with drugs, alcohol, promiscuity & the kkk. low, it's just low. & it would hurt so bad, i would imagine. cheaters= low lifes. there are, however, exceptions, but fuck, you're telling her you're in love with her and then you off and go & do that? not cool. not at all.
this is why i hate teenagers : they are inbred sorry excuses for human beings. the majority of them anyways. they're going nowhere and bringing our futures with them.
this is why i hate society : brainwashing our every thought, controlling our moves. bringing insecurity to so many idiot teenage girls. making billions of dollars off the inept, rolling out trends the way [edit] rolls out insults. every fucking second. society; disgusting. the reason for the majority of my rants. hey, it's not my fault everyone sucks. society says it's okay to fuck up your life. society says it's okay to wake up in the middle of nowhere half naked. society says it's okay to have sex with someone at fourteen just cos' you like em' a lot. hey, who cares, right? pregancy never happens!
this is why i hate feminists : oh just shutup already, no one fuckin' cares. just deal with it; we're no more than the male species. equal. you're no better than chauvinists. seriously. & just shave already, god, no one needs to see that. someone could get an eye poked out or burn from that; it's a hazard, fuck.
this is why i hate techno : um, because it sucks?
this is why i hate bill gates : grrr......................bloody bastard wasting all of my money. moron.
this is why i hate the majority of americans : not any of you, course' :p. just...about everyone who asks me if i say "eh???" and ask about igloos, to which i respond, "yes, i plug my computer into the ice." and to every stupid "you have walmart? really!???" "no, since i live on a floating iceberg." & also since they actually voted for bush. i mean, hello!!!!!!!!!!! mister "hey i'm gonna shoot innocent brown people because i can!" & because i've gone through so much; i've had so many ignorant and racist comments directed at me. damn fuckers.
this is why i hate skaters i know: oh just...learn to drive already!! no, that's not it. they're just so, "hey i'm a skater let me talking about it all day long 24/7 and piss everyone off oh look what i can do i can do an ollie yay yay yay did i mention i'm 16 and need a life hey look at my shag i don't wash my hair and hey look what i can do! " some boys, i agree, are shag-a-delic, hah, but um, most of them are far too long and i strongly dislike long hair on guys. but not just that. they are so annoying and they all hang out with each other and have their skater kings c and m (but m is okay because he seems cool and it's not just because of his lip ring rini!!) and they have no brains and...yeah. i dislike them muchly. them and their circa and osiris and thinking they know punk music even though months ago they did not know what emo is (but alas, thanks to the trend, they do now!) and they only listen to afi all day long so therefore i am no longer on good terms with afi. sometimes anyways. afi all day long on their shirts, playin' loud & their conversations. the only bloody band they know! gah!!!! wow, that was long. lol.
this is why i hate her: um, i don't. hate her, that is. but she's the one person i strong dislike even though i haven't seen her in ages; she bothers me so much because well, she was my ex bestfriend who ditched me [edit], told people i copied her, and comes off as this cool non-conformist when really, she's just a shadow (except only those who are close to her really see that.) she's his shadow. she borrowed his eyes- may that's why he's so emo, gotta cover up his lack of eyes with hair- and hasn't given em' back. i could go on forever, but it wouldn't make any difference. she would still be her, and i would still be deena; the girl she thought she left behind, but really, i was always miles ahead of her.
this is why i hate winter: because we get snow. lots of snow. and snow is cold. & i hate being cold. there's no one to even bloody warm me up. no. winter is bad. bad bad bad. cold is bad.
this is why i pink: bright...colours...bad....hot pink i don't mind, actually. but still. would never wear it. looks terrible on me too. and also the epitome of girliness.
this is why i hate scenesters: oh i'm so cool, i'm so scene, i'm way cooler then you, i can't talk to you because i'm better than you! oh yeah look at my emo hair, it means i'm the hottest person ever, therefore don't even try to talk to me! damn hypocrites; they're exactly like the so-called in crowd. puhhlease. scenester hipster incrowd. motherfuckers!
this is why i hate drama queens: oh god, no one cares. really.
speaking of no one cares, i'm gonna shutup now....it’s long. i know. aye.
{& there's so much more. yes, i am a girl with a lot of hate. well, it's not really hate for a lot of them, just strong dislike. angry angry girl had to just rant. sorry, aye. yeah, i don't care if i've offended you. :p }
